Saturday, December 29, 2007 ?
I know this guy who I've been teaching. He's not the most talented/gifted person I know. Which is basically a euphemistic way of saying, he sucks.
I thought of giving up on him. Tell him that I don't want to teach him no more. So I tried. But again, he's not the smartest guy in the world. One day, I asked him if he wanted to try something new. He told me, "No, I'm going to stick with this." I thought to myself, how can I quit of him? He's so committed.
What in the hell was I thinking?
Dude says he has a competition. So I'm thinking, we have to make use of every opportunity to practice. One day, I wasn't free so we changed the session to Sunday. I sent him a message, asking him to come practice. Somehow he changed his mind and he told me 2 hours wasn't enough. Sure it wasn't enough, because every time we start practicing he wants to do something else like play pool or ping-pong or something.
Now take that scenario and multiply it by 10. That's how many times I got stood up because he changed his mind or some bullshit like that.
Just today, I sent him a message. Asked him to come practice tomorrow. He says no, he's staying up the whole night so he has to sleep the whole day tomorrow.
Of all the ungrateful bastards I know, this dude is the worst.
I take my time and energy and patience to teach him. But every time, seems like he has something more important to do. And he has the nerve to criticize others, saying how they're such posers. But he ain't much better.
I tell him he's not going to get good enough in time for the competition, but he keeps telling me to relax. Shit, why would I be nervous? I just don't want the dude to embarrass himself. But somehow he doesn't see it that way. From what I know, he thinks he's all that.
I'm going to try and end this once and for all, but I don't know how.
Labels: bastard, jie, kang, uncommitted, ungrateful, zhang
Friday, December 28, 2007 ?
So yeah, I'm writing my blog again. Felt like I should. It's 1 AM now.
It's hard to explain the way I feel. My friends around me are slowly becoming strangers. I don't want it to be this way, but I can't change anything. What transpires or does not cannot be determined by me.
I can only pray, but how do I know anyone is listening?
Labels: destiny, friends, life, strangers
Friday, December 14, 2007 ?
I know they say home is where your heart is, but Singapore will always be home to me.
I miss how the people talk there.
I miss the way people are there.
I miss having people who have things in common with me.
I miss not having to have to be on guard all the time.
I miss the food.
I miss the nightlife.
I miss Singapore.
Labels: home, sad, singapore
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This is the post I somehow managed to salvage. Here it is now.
Damn, I feel I haven't writen anything for a long time, and I was thinking about this, so...
Dr Love is in da house!
I hate it when guys have emotional problems, saying that they love a girl even though they know so little about them.I hate to break it to you, dudes, but that's not love. It's infatuation.I mean, how can you love a girl when you don't know everything about them? Love is the ability to accept anything and everything, what they do, their good habits, their bad habits. There's the good things: the way they smile, the fragrance of their hair, the way they comfort you. Then there's the bad things. The way they leave everything lying all around, when they don't laugh at your jokes, the way they pick on you for something you thought was insignificant.
Some people only have this stunning revelation later on in their life. They can't stand their partner and they took 10 years to find out. Then they get divorced.
What I'm trying to say is, love at first sight is a crock. You
think you love someone, but then you find out it was just a physical attraction.
When you can put up with their temper, when you can listen to the things she says instead of just nodding without really listening. That's love.
Labels: everything, fake, infatuation, lies, love
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Recently I have been thinking back to a time about a year ago.
Me and my family took a vacation and went to Hong Kong. Since my father was there on business and everyone's families were bringing their kids there, Disneyland was one of the places we decided to visit.
I had a perception of what Disneyland would be like before I even got there. I was thinking Six Flags. Sadly, I quickly discovered that the average age of Disneyland Goers are about 8. Okay, no matter. There must be
something I could do.
Again, I was wrong. No suprise there. The most fun I had was eating the roast duck. However there was actually one ride that I could go on without falling asleep. Space Mountain.
So me and my brothers decided to try it out. First time I ever saw an indoor rollercoaster, I must admit it intriqued me to some degree. Since there was nothing else better to do, I went on it about 20 times.
Getting back to my hotel, my stomach started acting up. I was lying on the bed but couldn't get to sleep. Must be the food, I figured. Took some Chinese pills in the hopes that it would go away.
No such luck.
I was suffering from delayed motion sickness. Ended up throwing up about 3 times.
Life.. is like a rollercoaster.
Recently I've been feeling happy and depressed, feeling great, and then discouraged. Sometimes I wonder.
Why do I even try?
Labels: disneyland, hong kong, life, rollercoasters, space mountain
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What up readers. It's your boy Ben here at China.
I have decided to finally start blogging on a real website. This decision occured because facebook is stupid. Where did all my notes go? I'm going to sue you for this someday like that idiot woman who sued McDonalds. Suprisingly, Blogger.com works. I love you, Blogger.com. Somehow, I managed to salvage one of my notes. I will put that up after I type this.
This blog is going to be where I keep all my complaints, because I have nothing else to talk about.
It is currently 2:05 AM here. Can't sleep because of all that coffee. Have to attend some talk thing tomorrow from 8:30 in the morning until like 6:30. Saturday too.
Now you know how much my life sucks.
